Hey lovey,

If any of you are on Instagram, you may have seen that I’ve upped my game there.

(PS: if you’re not following me, I’d love it if you’d join my IG community too. 🎉)

I had a friend who messaged me in my DMs saying, “I love how strong you’re showing up on IG!” 

My honest response was, “Oh girl. It’s been a PROCESS.” 

I thought I’d give you some behind the scenes of how I finally got myself onto social media and decided to not just post here and there, but to show up in a big freaking way.

Those of you who have seen me hosting groups or classes online might not believe this, but I have terrible performance anxiety. 

When I’ve hosted public events on Eventbrite and had hundreds of people sign up, I would have trouble sleeping. I would feel this overall heaviness from the dread of having to show up online in front of people I don’t know. 

Then I would show up with my heart pounding and my hands sweating - teach my class or do my presentation - then immediately get offline and need to lie down because I was SO exhausted. 

Hundreds of people never showed up (that’s normal with free events for me), but it didn’t matter if I was talking to four people or forty people, I would have the same rattling experience.

So - you can imagine what the idea of showing up day after day on social media did to my nervous system. 

FREAK. OUT. CENTRAL.

And also, I’ve known for a WHILE now that I needed to start talking to more people than just you - you lovely human. And the path to that, for me, was Instagram.

UGGGGGGHHHHHHGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH.

^ that was me for like, mmmmm months? Just groaning and moaning about not wanting to:

• Be seen online
• Have to create content
• Film myself
• Look at myself day after day on video
• Deal with trolls
• Deal with low views/likes/followers
• Keep going even when no one was watching
• Be vulnerable
• Be known on a bigger scale

I mean. I had ALL THE REASONS to avoid this process.

But business is a personal growth journey, so I picked my start date (January 1st) and then decided to do everything I could to get myself ready.

I bought an IG program that teaches you how to do reels well.  I’d been eyeing it for over a year. It was a GAME changer. You can check it out here if you want.

I got familiar with CapCut. 

I researched and bought a phone holder for filming.

I picked a word that matched my intention for the year: CONSISTENT.

I made a public announcement (to you and on my blog) that I was going to show up consistently on Instagram. 

I would write down reel ideas in my notes app when they popped into my head. 

Then I did a TON of energy work so that I wouldn’t freak out when I started.

I decided not to quit. 

Do I know entirely what I’m doing? Hell no. Was I wildly terrified to start? Hell yes. I felt like I was jumping off a high dive. Did I feel ready? Ummmmmmm hard no.

But was it worth it? Absolutely yes. And I still have so much more to learn and grow. 

I don’t always share my process, but I thought this was a good one to let you in on. 

I am sooooo human having such a human time over here. I think that’s what makes me a good coach and healer, because I’ve been through it and I GET IT.

But now it’s your turn to gear up for something, prepare yourself (however you need to) and GO FOR IT. 

I’m gonna be cliché here… but if not now when? 

Rebecca*

PS: This is the program I used. 10/10 recommend it.